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The World at Large

  The descending sun spooks me, As it reminds me of impending doom. The fate of the world hanging on  the joker wearing the crown. A game of deceit and endless conspiracies, Rigged to make the hidden emerge strong. ‘Come one come all’ The sign bellows. Not one peasant decided to enjoy the menu. They are sinking to fall in their own broken ship. All towing to head into the dark abyss. We enjoy playing the game when it is, Someone else who’s head will twirl if they miss. But when the trigger loads and the target is us. When the bullet wants to grab hold on us. We run so far, without a hitch. We run to never stop to check. What happened to those who tried to save us? What happened to the joker who longs for love? What happened to the magician, is he still sick? The old man, next door, did he get his tip? The world of our species amuses me. To see the world move by so cheap. The moon is now out. It winks at me. The stars shining bright following me. The world beyond our species, F...

Talk it out

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Talk to yourself. Trust me, it helps. And no, you are not insane to do so. You want to know something, when I revealed that I cope by conversing with myself, people laughed at my face. Made jokes about it for days. I felt humiliated for a while but then, the best thing happened. I started comforting myself and slowly worked it out. That's when I learned that it didn't matter what they thought. The best person to guide me in certain situations is me. Deep down, I know what I want. In fact, something is always telling all of us what we want. We just refuse to pay attention to it. Let me ask you something, you might read a dozen self-help books, watch a dozen spiritual videos, and that's all ok. No discrimination against any of that. But, why do you deny yourself the opportunity to be your own rock? Why are you waiting for someone to come and fix you up, why are you holding it all in so that you can pour it out to some stranger who you are hoping will pop out of a bush? Why no...

REMEMBER THIS!!

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Remember, you do not have to apologize for feeling. They are your thoughts and they are your actions, you have full control over them. You do not have to beg for mercy just because you felt anxious or because you got hurt by something they said. Noone and I mean NOONE has the authority to make you do that. Do you understand? Stop living a life based on someone else's terms and start creating your own, because trust me, there is no better revenge than smiling from ear to ear to the people who made you shed over a million tears. - Mahathi.S p.c-Tumblr

chance..

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there is no point in blaming them. it's your life. you made the decision. it is you who said 'yes' when you were supposed to say 'no', you can't blame them for asking and neither can you blame yourself for accepting. maybe deep down you felt a void of loneliness. maybe you needed that company. maybe, just maybe, you were alone with your thoughts. the one feeling you absolutely dread.  It's ok. whatever is done is done. now, it is your chance to prove to the world that you will soar again. it is your chance to redeem your self worth and scream at the top of your lungs that you are back again.  but remember, not everyone gets a second chance, and the lucky ones who do, sometimes forget the value of it by spiralling again. this is your moment. it is up to you to choose whether you will be forgotten like the rest or will you stand up for yourself? -Mahathi.S  p.c-wallpaper cave

STOP!

Mental Struggle Is Real. Yes it hurts deeply, it scars one for life and it's like being lost in a dark abyss with no sign of life. Stop belittling it. Stop shaming it. And stop treating it like a disgrace. Because the more you lose faith in it the more your loved ones who are struggling hide away from you. To all those who think mental illness isn't a "thing" and that it's "made up", shame on you! Yes, all of you! None of you took the time to understand what real pain means. Do you know how it feels like to have a voice in your head continuously demotivating you all day, to have silent whispers insulting you wherever you set foot, to have your own mind judging you constantly for everything you do? If you do, then reach out. Don't just sit there and drown in your sadness, communicate. Please. And if you don't, shut the hell up! You have no right whatsoever to shame someone based on their mental health. You have no right to attach a tag of disgrace...

Show your SUPPORT!

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Love Yourself

You don't need to prove anything to anybody. This is your life, not theirs. Don't strive for their approval. You only need yours, follow your heart. Because trust me, it will never leave you in a ditch and even if it does, it will always show you the way out. Trust yourself first, because you are the only person I can guarantee is going to stay forever, till the end of time. And this time I actually mean till the end. Learn to love yourself. Accept that you matter too. - Mahathi.S

LEARN THIS!

It's funny , how we yearn so much for something, burn ourselves out for it and when we finally receive the fruit of our labour, the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, we give all the credit to 'luck'. It's always, "I'm so lucky to have gotten this". Yes, I'm not saying you are not. You do have a certain amount of luck, but is luck the person who stayed up all night for this? Did "luck" pull the many all-nighters you did? Did "luck" burn itself out trying to obtain this result? I'm sorry, i thought it was YOU!  Learn, to give yourself credit sometimes. It's not such a bad thing. And it certainy is not being selfish, it's called being grateful. I'm not telling you to become a self-obsessed monstor but at the same time I'm telling you to learn to thank yourself for everything you do. You are your head cheerleader, if you don't motivate the team to go on, who will? So, the next time you achieve something, big...

Mankind is doomed...

From the throne of the world until the grains of sands, How can I not wonder where I stand?/ The mighty oceans battle with my tears, as I ponder over all of my fears/ Running around, chasing a name,  what has our world been made? Through all this pain and strife that I face, How can I not wonder where is my place?/ The free wind ruffles my hair, as I smile wondering how carefree it feels, Nowhere to come from, Nowhere to go. Isn't that what we humans desire, to flow? "Empathize with your surroundings", I was once told. But in a generation where that word has no meaning, with what courage can I stand and say, 'Mankind is doomed'   - Mahathi.S

A SHORT STORY : "Annie"

“Do you have to go Daddy?” squeaked the voice of a little girl. Her tone echoed with innocence and scarred the man sitting in front of her uncomfortably. His bright orange jumpsuit with an inked number on the front pocket was once quite bizarre to little Annie’s eyes, but she had grown used it over the course of the past 3 years. She used to question him on why he never wore anything else, but over time she gradually realised that in prison, people cannot choose what they want to wear and what they don’t. Yes, she was indeed wise for her age. Her mind had come to terms with her father’s arrest but not her heart. ‘Daddy is not a bad man’ she often told herself out of sheer hope, hoping her aching heart will seize it’s unbearable tantrums. ‘ They have got the wrong man, that’s it. Daddy will come home soon’ , she repeated every night before she went to sleep. It was her ‘mantra’ in a way. The man in front of her was quite tall, with jet black eyes shining down at the world before him. ...

A SHORT STORY : "3:45 am"

“CRASH!”, screamed the night sky, startling Tommy out of a deep slumber. The storm had intensified severely in the past few hours. The sky cried gallons and gallons of tears while Thor ranted and raged with fury. Tommy, still half asleep, checked the bright yellow alarm clock beside him. “3:45am.” he sighed. As he shut his hazel eyes tighter than ever begging his brain to tune off. But no matter how many times he tossed and he turned, no matter how many times he sat up and lay down again, he couldn’t get a wink of sleep. The stormy night seemed to fade into a new dawn, and the electric energy of the previous night reduced to mere pitter- patter of raindrops. The chirping of birds along with the rustling trees that danced with the wind added to Tommy’s dismal. The bright, cheery and radiant atmosphere of a new day was equally matched by Tommy’s unwillingness to get out of bed. “UGHHHHHH SCHOOLL!!!!!!”, the 16-year-old grumbled painstakingly. The clock now said 6:40, prompting Tommy to p...

A SHORT STORY : "OH, BROTHER"

The sun peered out from its hidden nest and stretched itself widely across the sky. It was one of those enchanted summer mornings where no one could picture anything going wrong. Birds chirped merrily as they soared through the sky, spreading joy wherever they flew by. People from all walks of life, exchanged looks of glee as they got ready for another day of life. Everybody genuinely seemed grateful, everybody except Lyon. “Ugh…why did the sun have to rise AGAIN?, Another day at a boring absolutely uninteresting workplace.. yay!.”, he sneered sarcastically as he stuffed himself with buttered toast. A desperate man’s meal. Lyon had a thing for these seemingly picturesque days. He didn’t like them, just like he didn’t like the sun, the birds, or even the children. He found them pesky and nosy. Basically, he despised a lot of things. But the one thing he felt a true calling for was making lists. And so, he made a list of dreads, that contained every little thing he had disowned for t...

Will you be there to save me again? #2

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These days, these nights, the way they fly by, leaving me alone to dance under the moonlight. You can see me sob, you can see me fall, But, you will never see me put down my guard. The silence kills me and in chaos i thrive... These nightmares break my sleep everytime, as the ghosts that haunt me whisper in fright, Will you be there to save me again? - Mahathi.S p.c - Facebook

The world will soon be yours..

If the day was a dream, will you let your heart fly? If he stood there on his knees, would that make you stop time? Darling, please listen to your heart and never let out silent cries. If tonight was your paradise, would you hide your fake smile and show the world the scars you hide? Darling, please don't lose hope, The world will soon be yours. And damn, that day he will know that you are an angel in disguise... Don't limit yourself to what you think is the end, You have a long way to go, Trust me darling, The world will soon be yours again... - Mahathi.S 

Gratitude...

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Be grateful. Don't just take things for granted. Look around you, you have been blessed with everything you need. There is always a difference between needing something and wanting something. Whatever you need has already been provided to you in abundance, whatever you want will slowly make it's way to you depending upon where you stand in life. Yes, i know it sounds spiritual, but take a minute to think about it. You will realise that it is true. You will realise that you have every reason to skip and frolic around smiling and screaming thank you. You will come to understand that everything happens for a reason... - Mahathi.S p.c - artstation.com

Choose!

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Darling, i hope you understand that there is always a choice. There is always a chance to choose between right or wrong.good or bad. And it all just depends upon whether you want to or not.  If you are looking for a solution to make just yourself happy, you will find yourself lost in a maze of thoughts that again benefit only you. But if you choose to make the people around you, the people you care about happy, you will find yourself surrounded with billions of successful ideas that will actually work. You will be filled with the fuel to devise a strategy to help everyone around you. You will be driven with inspiration and you will work till the very last second until you see every last smile. And you wouldn't need any other reward bigger than that. The joy of the people you care about is magic in its own way.  - Mahathi.S p.c - Ecopetit.co

Again..

I'm sorry to be the one who says this but history always finds a way to repeat itself. The situations you dread to go through once more will take place over and over again,leaving you broken on the floor gasping for air. The spine chilling moments of your life will definitely take place more than once,leaving you speechless and fragmented all over again. No matter how many levels you pass, life will always find a way to bring you back to square one. I'm sorry to be the one who bursts your bubble but saying never will only force the event to take place sooner than expected. But in every dark abyss there will always be a silver lining. And finding it will prove whether you have learnt your lesson the first time or whether you will succumb to the same fate all over again... - Mahathi.S