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The World at Large

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  The descending sun spooks me, As it reminds me of impending doom. The fate of the world hanging on  the joker wearing the crown. A game of deceit and endless conspiracies, Rigged to make the hidden emerge strong. ‘Come one come all’ The sign bellows. Not one peasant decided to enjoy the menu. They are sinking to fall in their own broken ship. All towing to head into the dark abyss. We enjoy playing the game when it is, Someone else who’s head will twirl if they miss. But when the trigger loads and the target is us. When the bullet wants to grab hold on us. We run so far, without a hitch. We run to never stop to check. What happened to those who tried to save us? What happened to the joker who longs for love? What happened to the magician, is he still sick? The old man, next door, did he get his tip? The world of our species amuses me. To see the world move by so cheap. The moon is now out. It winks at me. The stars shining bright following me. The world beyond our species, F...
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MOM..

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No words can describe how much you mean to me. Because I know that no matter how much I write I will still not be able to measure up anywhere close to where you stand. From listening to my endless theories of stupidity to patiently hearing my vexed out thoughts, you do it all! You give me advice when you know I'm scared I've messed up. You give me a chance to speak out even when you don't need to. I have annoyed you endlessly for 14 whole years by doing everything possible to push your buttons and even after all that you still laugh with me, you still play with me, you still make fun of me... To me, you are everything I've known. You have been my rock on days where I feared I'd hit rock bottom, you have been there to wipe my tears and give me a hug. You have put me to sleep on days where monsters and nightmares kept me awake. Thank you ma, thank you for everything! I call you silly names, you do the same. You are my forever 16-year old best friend and I'm so luc...
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.....me

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I'm always there, one with the shadows., watching and listening to your every move. I know every one of your devious schemes and that sly smile doesn't escape through me. I can hear your faint whispers as I put my thoughts to sleep. Don't underestimate my power for when I pounce you will wish you didn't dare meet me. Silence is my weapon, but it's not the only thing I practice in life. For when the time is right, I will rise just to claim what is mine. - Mahathi.S  p.c - pinterest
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NOW

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....And it took me a while to get over all the games and the lies,  it took me longer than it should have to throw out every burnt letter and cleanse out my life. My slate is clean now, I've got nothing to hide. I can finally exhale now, I can finally carry on with my new life. there are no CHOICES for you to make now... no more mysterious dealings with my life. but, deep down, I hope it bothers you, how the thought of you no longer seems to bother me. how I'm no longer a slave to your endless plots of deceit. I hope it bothers you that I'm free now. Please remember, that the chapter is closed and done. Stop trying to find ways to make yourself look like the victim now. You cannot win this war when you have already won the battles by force and not by a fight. You cannot rewrite this story. You will live with the shame. You will bury your head whenever you hear my name because you will remember that no matter what you do, you will always be the evil one and the crook. You wi...
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Talk it out

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Talk to yourself. Trust me, it helps. And no, you are not insane to do so. You want to know something, when I revealed that I cope by conversing with myself, people laughed at my face. Made jokes about it for days. I felt humiliated for a while but then, the best thing happened. I started comforting myself and slowly worked it out. That's when I learned that it didn't matter what they thought. The best person to guide me in certain situations is me. Deep down, I know what I want. In fact, something is always telling all of us what we want. We just refuse to pay attention to it. Let me ask you something, you might read a dozen self-help books, watch a dozen spiritual videos, and that's all ok. No discrimination against any of that. But, why do you deny yourself the opportunity to be your own rock? Why are you waiting for someone to come and fix you up, why are you holding it all in so that you can pour it out to some stranger who you are hoping will pop out of a bush? Why no...
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REMEMBER THIS!!

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Remember, you do not have to apologize for feeling. They are your thoughts and they are your actions, you have full control over them. You do not have to beg for mercy just because you felt anxious or because you got hurt by something they said. Noone and I mean NOONE has the authority to make you do that. Do you understand? Stop living a life based on someone else's terms and start creating your own, because trust me, there is no better revenge than smiling from ear to ear to the people who made you shed over a million tears. - Mahathi.S p.c-Tumblr
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chance..

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there is no point in blaming them. it's your life. you made the decision. it is you who said 'yes' when you were supposed to say 'no', you can't blame them for asking and neither can you blame yourself for accepting. maybe deep down you felt a void of loneliness. maybe you needed that company. maybe, just maybe, you were alone with your thoughts. the one feeling you absolutely dread.  It's ok. whatever is done is done. now, it is your chance to prove to the world that you will soar again. it is your chance to redeem your self worth and scream at the top of your lungs that you are back again.  but remember, not everyone gets a second chance, and the lucky ones who do, sometimes forget the value of it by spiralling again. this is your moment. it is up to you to choose whether you will be forgotten like the rest or will you stand up for yourself? -Mahathi.S  p.c-wallpaper cave
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STOP!

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Mental Struggle Is Real. Yes it hurts deeply, it scars one for life and it's like being lost in a dark abyss with no sign of life. Stop belittling it. Stop shaming it. And stop treating it like a disgrace. Because the more you lose faith in it the more your loved ones who are struggling hide away from you. To all those who think mental illness isn't a "thing" and that it's "made up", shame on you! Yes, all of you! None of you took the time to understand what real pain means. Do you know how it feels like to have a voice in your head continuously demotivating you all day, to have silent whispers insulting you wherever you set foot, to have your own mind judging you constantly for everything you do? If you do, then reach out. Don't just sit there and drown in your sadness, communicate. Please. And if you don't, shut the hell up! You have no right whatsoever to shame someone based on their mental health. You have no right to attach a tag of disgrace...
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